I recently posted this on my personal Facebook profile, mostly out of a cathartic need to share my story of progress and also to capture my current positive mindset for future Bethan to refer back to in less happy moments.
I was absolutely astounded by the response I got from friends, family and even people who I had not spoken to in years. I received many messages of support and comradery, all of which were greatly appreciated!
It is extremely comforting to learn that I am not alone in my experiences and that other people are willing to talk about mental health issues in such an open and supportive manner.
I thought I would re post on here, in the hope that it will help to support an open discourse about mental health and maybe, just maybe, make someone else feel a little less isolated.
Nobody is ever alone.
"Next week should be an interesting one, as it will involve standing on stage, selling myself and Bright Ethics to a crowd of 100 people, as part of The Pitch competition.
Six months ago I was barely able to answer the phone or leave the house due to a rehabilitating mix of depression and anxiety. Standing up on stage and competitively pitching my business would have been unthinkable back then...
I guess this status is bittersweet, as I know I still have a long way to go until I'm fully "recovered" (I have no idea what that would even look like if I am perfectly honest!) However, this is one of those moments when I can look back and say that things are getting measurably better. I am getting better.
Whether or not I make it through to the top 30, (though lets be honest, that's what I'm there to do!) standing on that stage will be a proud moment regardless. It will also hopefully be a sign of things to come!
I'm sure I've said this before, but I'm not looking for pity, or applause, when writing this kind of status. I just want people who are, or have been, in similar situations to know that it does get better.
Progress, not matter how small, is always progress."
As you may be aware, back in June Des and I took part in The Clearing Project - a post-apocalyptic vision of the future set in the grounds of Compton Verney, a Stately home turned Art Gallery in rural Warwickshire.