Mental health is a difficult issue to talk about in the business landscape. I often get the impression that many of us would rather bury our collective heads in the sand than openly talk about how hard starting a business can be on your mental health.
Because let's face it, being an "entrepreneur" or small business owner isn't exactly the route you take for a stress free and easy life.
I certainly felt this way for a long time, that my mental health was something to be ashamed of and that I needed to hide any evidence that I was nothing other than perfect.
I get pretty mad at myself now when I think about how much time I spent panicking about what would happen if people found out about my depression and how this might impact on my reputation and business efforts.
It's taken quite a while to come to the realization that I have nothing to hide and absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. I am human and like all humans, I am fallible.
I say this in the video, but I am no less of a person for having had mental health issues. I am a strong and intelligent person who went through a particularly difficult patch and came through it.
This was an incredibly hard video to make for lots of reasons, but I hope it offers at least an interesting insight into what it's like to live with and recover from depression, whilst also trying to start a business.
I also hope that is shows that having depression isn't a life sentence of misery, you can get better, you will get better.
And the main thing is, you aren't alone.
i’m returning to the stage at the Lead Developer London conference this June where I’ll be talking about my experiences hiring through an anonymous recruitment process and how this lead my team to conduct some very interesting research into what might put off traditionally marginalised job seekers from applying.
Welcome to my roundup of all I’ve been getting up to and loving from 25th Feb to 3rd March